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01 June 2009 @ 07:40 pm
Getting reaquainted with LJ. :)  
It's been awhile since I used LJ frequently but I am enjoying the fact that I have a new one. We'll leave that alone, ha.

Anyways. I figured I would introduce myself.

My names Lianna, but everyone knows me as Liann or Lia mostly. I am 28 years old and a mother of 3. (9g,7g,6b). I just came out of a 10 year marriage to a biological male last September we had 'mutually seporated', I left and moved back to my home state (and town) with my now bf, 27 year old FTM Jaeden. I had identified as bisexual from the time I was 18 years old (shortly after marrying and moving out of my parents home). I have always been attracted to women, but hadn't had any experience with them til I was 25. It was short, not so sweet, and it made me even more aching to be near a woman, and pulled me futher away from my then husband, who is still legally... but GOD I cannot wait to lose his name and that marriage licence.

JD and I have been together roughly since 8.8.08, that's what we say, even though it was the day we first started talking on OKcupid.com. We knew there was way more between us then before even meeting face to face. Let me just tell you, this bond we have blows me away. I had always known there was a deeper meaning inside of me that was doused by 11 years with a man who nearly suffocated my identity and created a shell of nearly overly emotional consumption. That reality that my ex wasn't who I was meant to be with came crashing like a freight train, the day I met JD. who at the time Identified as a lesbian from the time he was 14 years old, and had practically all his life been attracted to women from early on.

JD hid from family and friends who he really was because he was afraid of being rejected. Well after nearly 4 months of being 'together', he'd admitted to me through text after a heated night (not in a bad way *wg*) that he had wanted to feel so much more with me, and 'knew' what he could do to have that. Maybe not entirely in medical sense, but I'm sure those of you who have been with a Transman understand where I'm coming from.

Anyways. I am in the center of a bitter, annoying, emotionally breaking divorce battle with my ex who is threatening to take my babies from me. There's way too much to put into an intro, but let's just say I have succumb to changing our numbers and reverting back to smoking after quitting 4 months ago because I have been so shaken up by his threats.

JD is my best friend, and the only reason I survived a severe depression that I had sunken into before I met him. I would give everything to give him what will make him feel comfortable and in the skin he deserves to be in after hiding for so long from people he couldn't trust would accept him for who he was.

Anyways. I am longwinded and tend to go off on subject topics that I start on to begin with. HA. I am looking for women who can be my adversaries in this journey that my baby and I will be going through, to know someone else has felt how I feel, and I am dying to see his changes. :)
 
 
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meegoshmeegosh on June 2nd, 2009 09:36 am (UTC)
I just want to say good luck with keeping your babies, plus with all the other stresses in your life.
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LiaBellatiggersrain on June 2nd, 2009 11:23 pm (UTC)
*grumble*
I didn't mean to generalize, and I am very well aware of this. :) sometimes my posts may not say everything I'm thinking because I just am not always totally thinking. Specially lately. But this I already know :)
Michaelftmichael on June 2nd, 2009 06:35 pm (UTC)
Welcome aboard! Definitely check out partners_of_tg and http://groups.yahoo.com/group/gqtgparenting/ .
Ian patrick larsonboy_larson on July 5th, 2009 04:11 am (UTC)
I just came into this community Infact my girl messages me left me a personal message but My question is When u are ur Bf were getting to know each other was it hard or easy Im in Edmonton,Alberta Canada and my girl is in Rhode island USA
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